|Posted by Tina kadolph on February 18, 2013 at 10:05 PM|
“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” ~ Proverbs 19:21 NIV
All through my life, I’d have to say that I’ve made my plans and God almost always redirects them. I see this over and over again since I started leading mission trips. I make all the plans, think of everything I could possibly think of...and God thinks of something better. Go figure. But I love how He not only changed my plans, but also turned my world upside down (in a good exciting and wonderful way)!
When I think about my life, and where I came from, I never thought God would be a part of me or any part of my life. I had my life all figured out, and He wasn’t a part of it.
I was a broken, hurt, little girl, who grew up to be a broken, hurt, hopeless, angry, and bitter young woman. I figured people had hurt me and used me, so I would stay distant from all people and God. I thought I would become an airline stewardess and travel the world and never get married. Men were not trustworthy. I would never need or want one of them. I didn’t know it at the time, but I think back now and realize that I didn’t think God was trustworthy. If He was there, where was He when I needed him most? I wasn’t brought up in church, and really knew nothing about God except what I heard from others now and then. But I did know that I didn’t need Him or want to know more.
I had all my plans made for my future. But God had other plans. He was working behind the scenes. He does that, you know.
So, to make a long story short (maybe...LOL), I met my husband Carl. He had been brought up in church even though, at the time we met, he had drifted away from it. But he saw something in this insecure, broken, young girl that was worth pursuing.
We dated for 3 years, and it was a hard 3 years. I tried to push him out of my life many times. I figured that he would only end up hurting me in the end, so I might as well get rid of him before he did it to me. But, he never gave up on me. It was through his constant love that I thought maybe I’d want to know more about this God.
Carl told me that we had so much in our relationship and that he loved me, but that we were missing one important part. He wanted God in our relationship. So we started going to church and I accepted Christ at the age of 21. Carl renewed his relationship with God, too. It still took about ten years of God mending my broken heart and putting the pieces back together before I really grabbed a hold of what He had to offer and ran with it. As Elisha did, I have been burning my plows (old life) and running towards God and whatever he has for me.
Oh, when I think how I had my plans! My plans were no God and to stay broken and bitter. Wow, the redirection God has done! As Psalms 34:17-19 says, “The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all.”
I really began to realize that all my broken heart needed was the pieces to be put back together. The cross was the only way to fill the empty hole that was there. Only the cross (Jesus) could fill the hole and fix the brokenness!
So, the short version: Carl and I married and we had two beautiful daughters. He became a pastor. We started a mission organization, “Love Missions”, and have been a part of leading thousands to Christ. God has now added "Dove Designs" to our missions to help aid the fight against human trafficking. We have two safe houses for women and children.
And we just don’t stop! When God opens a door, we run through it. When he shuts it, we stop. But, as of now, we are running and loving every minute and opportunity God has given us to further His kingdom. God knew what He was doing when he put us together. Again, He had plans for us both.
I thought I would be a stewardess, traveling the world for myself. Well, I do travel the world, but for my Lord. What a redirection! His plans have so prevailed, I’d say! What a blessing. I’m so thankful God sees us as his precious daughters and he wants to rescue us – even from ourselves. He rescued me and now He allows me to be a part of rescuing others. How amazing is our God!